jZ a sp@ce F0r a mU3Ic lOveR...

where do i belong...

2011-12-04T04:47:00.001-08:00

seriously im gonna explode if these continue..
i mean, wtf in this world y everyone around was trying to give me a hard time..

Mum, what are u doin by having red eyes aftr crying..
it is worth to do so?
i hate when i see it n seriously no one gonna heed it..
go on n live ur life..
u dn hv to treat it by heart n mk urself suffer since he din even care..

Dad, wtf are u trying to show with ur face..I dun care if u are in bad mood with mum jz dn get it affect everyone in the hs..
u mk me wanna leave this hs..
n stop creating prob, even if u din contribute anything except money..
at least dn create prob n mess..

y she thk im the selfish one while all of them are doin the selfish stuff..
who would care enough for this house?
everytm trouble happen, he's the 1st one to run away..
NOT ME!

Evelyn,
i jz wanna prepare fr my exam peacefully,
few more days to go only, y cnt u do ur own thing..
Or rest..
dn said i hv time to do other stuff or wt..i jz wanna do my thing, what i wanna do
even if u din txt me, or text me less often, bt the way u talk jz dn mk it feel gd..
the 1st msg signifies the start of war d..
i know we had a lot of prob,
bt fr nw,, can u jz pause everythng..
im very very tired..
whn u in kl stdy, u also gt thing to complain,
whn u bac holiday, another thing again..
i really wanna move to a silent place..

2011-10-30T08:56:00.000-07:00

Everything changed..a lot more than i expected..
shd have realized everythng cnt be rewind..
she acted normal..very normal..i feel warm to have her react so lk a good fren...
but i know it's difference..nt lk we used to be..
im getting more n more invisible in front of them..
no matter how hard i try..
the lame one will be better than me..outstanding than me..

all of these make me realized that i should leave everything behind and walk on..
and money works fine for everything..
look at how he spend on her..
money can make him looks so elegance..
money can buy respect from people..
money makes you visible..
friendship is all fake without you looking cool
suddenly sincerity looks so weak compared with money..

He said im ego..
is it?
but no one know what's happening more than i know..
so he cant judge it

respect!

2011-09-26T01:01:00.000-07:00

yes , finally she said it out..im jz a fucking useless kid no matter how much i did..pathetic..thy are always right..im always the wrong one..thking abt how ur husband treat u when two of u hv prob..who's standing bside u..
but nw i thk u deserve it..cz u nvr care abt how ppl feel..u do what u like..
im trying to respect..bt if it's all like throwing into the sea..thn i won do it anymore..what for..
i keep quiet everytm and im trying to let u win..bt this doesnt mean im wrong..
don always talk abt ppl n thk u are always the right one..think abt urself bfr u tell someone off..
n how much they did for you, why they are always right? thy jz being selfish n step aside from u..tat's all..
Ans me whn i talk to u pls..

Tidy my notes..i feel lk im goin to fail my exam..the notes are so messy..really duno whr to start and how to stdy..

new life new soul..

2011-08-31T12:29:00.000-07:00

jz met all those silly college mate..nop..frens i shd use..
miss....all the life back to college..with all those playful housemate..
yea..sometimes, we'll hv dissatisfaction..
but this is life..who cares about it afterward..

but one thing that i very care..
i wish i can go back to that moment..
the moment that i enjoy true college life
we play we game we study..
no worries..
we talk about gals, we peep..
we fell in love for gals but never take action..
it's fun...

chatted with ct...
other than u,
she understd me the most..
she told me about truth..the ugly one..
that u won like, but still..it's truth..
when i know kc v danny..i feel slightly dissapointed..
i duno what's that means..

i jz know..love is the most important for me to go on for a relationship..
i know what i shd do..
bt i can't..
cz i cn't find any that better than you..

love song..
i got lots of lyrics for it..
but love song is simple..
it doesn't hv to come to an end..
it doesn't hv to be concluded..

in reality..
not so easy..
it's nt as simple as u thk..
and not as simple as u wan..
truth are always ugly..
coz u can't choose what u thk is nice..

sumtimes i hope to be single..
why..
coz thn i cn escape to all the prob..
but it's nt forever..

she said, when it's time, God will choose for us..
i hope so..
we'll see how....

2011-04-23T08:54:00.001-07:00

so tired..
relationship btw human..actually i should't thk too much..
as long as we can get along well, with anyone..
it's cool then

sometimes I just feel like no one understd me..but it's actually nt a big deal..
im not the only one being alone..
but sometimes..nt only friends..
but my parents..brothers..
all are lk..ishh..
shut up pls~ i wish i can said so..

Life = Dream

2011-02-15T19:33:00.000-08:00

life's lk a dream..

dream everyday..

so that everyday u can dream..

dream to live..

and live to dream..

this is life..

no dream, no life..

no life, how to dream..

Music StudentS

2010-11-18T01:36:00.001-08:00

Finally..

this time it's nt my fault..

let me tell you about music students' habit and lifestyle..

they like to sleep everywhr..Like a dog..

they like to misuse and bully classmate..like a guy with no balls

they like to be 'unpredictable'...goin for lunch end up with duno where else for whole day..

they like to walk in and out of gal's room..like a motel..

they don't know how to knock the door..before they enter someone's room..

and the worst is that it's a gal's room..

they like to use others' things..without permission from the owner..

they like to do last minute work..and stay up whole night..

they like to act like they are so talented and busy..

just to get the fame..

they like to own others' stuff..and act like their own..

and lastly..the most amazing one..

they like to step on my foot!!!

Story From A Past Tale

2010-11-15T07:08:00.000-08:00

One guy..he met a girl..

and they fell in love after few years..

being together..is the happiest thing that happened to them..

but soon..

the guy realized that..the girl is not happy..

all the while..

he know that he's the one who is acting weird..

he has weird requirement..

he has bad temper..

he is not considerate..

so now..

he wanna see her smile..

let her happy..

tat's all he can do bfr he leave..

soon he's goin to Uk..

this will end in no second..

That's all he can do bfr that..

"Sry for being childish..

Sry for being incosiderate..

Sry for dissapointing..

Sry for breaking those promise.."

He said.

money..money..money...

2010-11-11T23:01:00.000-08:00

Russell Peters...the Canadian bases comedian...

he has got cars and cars in his garage..

his income is around 15million per year...

I was thinking what??!!

I couldn't even earn that for my whole life..

worry about money?

I was like..that was the most important thing of all..

how am I suppose to get my ass to Uk without money..

world are like tat..

some don't even have to worry about money and they can sit there and gaming everyday..

why?? cause they are born to be rich..

I jz wanna study and catch up my tiny little dream which cost RM30,000..

I can't do what I wanna do for money..

I hv a gal..which I have to take care..

though..I'm the one who need to save..reduce my spending..

but I keep asking her to save..

I can't let her bear the same hard feeling as me..

It jz not fair..

Loans..with high interest rate..

scholarship..with lousy results..

come on..what should I do man...

music is spiritual...or not??

2010-11-02T08:35:00.001-07:00

We used to hear that the best, most beautiful and most perfect way that we have of expressing a sweet concord of mind to each other is by music. Music is said to be the God’s best gift to human. However, making music into business has caused us to forget the real meaning of music.

"Music is spiritual. The music business is not." said by Van Morrison, the Grammy Award-winning Northern Irish singer, songwriter, author, poet and multi-instrumentalist.

Some people look into music as their inspiration but some of them look into it for business purposes.

But..

making business music is the only way to get music spread to worldwide..without the commercial music, pure inspired spiritual music will not be easily accepted by the public..Hence it becomes a dead end for spiritual music.

Jazz..

If it's pure jazz, there's only professionals will love it..In order to bring it to the public..we have to commercialize it..and it becomes pop jazz..

bejeweled

2009-12-28T21:12:00.001-08:00

bejeweled..bejeweled..bejeweled..

tat's what i'll do when i miss her..

playing tat for the whole morning d..

i jz felt tat sth weird with her last nite..

but she said nth..

maybe i was thking too much..hope so..

prob hv to be solved..i hv to be responsible for it..

not gonna let her bear this all alone for sure..

all i worried is tat she would gv up if prob cant be solved..

would tat happen?

i believe in her..but i jz dun hv confidence to believe in myself..my ability..

summary of the days

2009-12-25T22:15:00.000-08:00

bbq last nite..

sleep like thr's no noise around..

worried she'll starve so keep on ask her to eat..

who noes get scolded..for grumble like a nanny..

i duno she realli get annoyed or jz simply voiced out..

i dun mean to annoy her..

wanna show my concern..but i dun dare..

wat am i thking...

it's ok i'll wait..and wait..

doin my assignment throughout the whole nite while they are playing and movie..

most of them fell asleep at about 4pm..she woke up and walk to me..

saw me sleeping bside the chair she slept on..she asked me to sleep on it and so it tills the sun shine brightly..

woke me up in the morning with the sweet sweet voice..

and we went back to her house..

tot she could hv a big nap as everyone was tired..who noes she have sth to bz..

continue my assignment in her room while she went out..

fell asleep again after i done my assignment..

woke me up again and we went down for her favorite mee goreng..

we were worried about the period she went to kl as new sem is going to start d..

wat to do.. hv to be tough..

She is and she will be..

2009-12-19T11:17:00.000-08:00

finally i can feel wat it's like to be appreciated..

i was so touched..

it's jz both of us cant believe wat's given to us..

so we do not hv confidence..

when she said she really need a lot of courages to do so..

i felt so sry to her..

as i'm the one who cause all these..

but we can face these together rite??

if i said so, i'll make it happen..

I'm back!

2009-12-18T02:05:00.000-08:00

I'm back!

this time..it's aint about who..aint about wat..

coz it's about me..

assignments and test is due...and i'm still bejeweling in facebook..

everyone tot i'm so steady and still can relax while they all are bzing for their test and assignments..

yes i am..

but i duno y???

being lazy for days and i'm almost drown in the books..

yet i still can relax...

god save me i dun wanna die in such a young age..

how ever..i manage to found sth precious to me during my laziness..

thx a lot to the weekend which let me clear up my mind..

i can be better off and i am now..

instant noodle with brad paisley

2009-10-07T22:22:00.000-07:00

i'm alone at hostel now..

hving instant noodles as i've broke..anyway,delicious..

currently listening to brad paisley's..

nice country song..

it's time to relax..

it's time to slow things down..

think about wat hv i done in the past..

result's coming out nex week..wonder how's hers..

how's mine..

i'm not confident v myself..

but it's not the time to thk about this now..

wanna study now..but i ended up with guitar strumming..

watched leehom concert's dvd..

the way he rearranged his song was amazing..

from hiphop, r&b, everything to rock..

he blaze among others..

and this remind me my eager to buy an electric guitar..

wonder how will it looks like??

will it be like this??

nop...stop dreaming..

maybe this..

a white custom gibson les paul..

electric guiTar??

2009-10-02T10:36:00.000-07:00

went to meet my sifu on wed..
asked him a lots of things..
he bought a new blade..it's an ESp's co-brand..Ltd..
watching him playing v it..and he taught me some power chords..
i realise tat it's a new stuff to learn..
it's quite diff v acoustic and classical..
electric guitar isn't as simple as it looks..
fingering..overdrv..distortion..many things to be handled..
hmm...now i'm thking to have a deep explore in it..
but i cant afford to buy one yet
maybe after few mths...
as it's realli a new thing for me to learn..it's totally a new feeling..

human???

2009-08-17T13:13:00.000-07:00

y is it so hard to be a human..

living in this world..

y we have to work so hard to satisfy the requirement of every fren?

y cant i jz be myself..

never tot they are so care about wat i've did..

y i mz work so hard to satisfy all of them..

and yet they cant feel my hard work..

i dun understand about the relationship between human..

i jz did wat i thk it's rite..

nvr tot things would be so serious..

wat shd i do??

i realli dunno..

i did a big mistake..??

who should i care the most..who shd decide that?

i need to be alone..

be like white paper..ignore wat ppl thk..

be myself..??

aiks..i would rather live in the jungle....

hip hop culture..in my mind..

2009-07-17T08:39:00.000-07:00

i was being asked to post tis up..hehe..
cant believe she likes hiphop culture too as i like it so much..
anyhow..i dun dare to wear those baggy jeans and tshirt as i'm too thin d...
wat's hip hop actualli..for more detailed explanation..i've quoted some info from wikipedia..

"Hip hop is a cultural movement which developed in New York City in the early 1970s primarily among African Americans and Latin Americans. Hip hop's four main elements are MCing(often called rapping), DJing, graffiti writing, and breakdancing. Other elements include beatboxing, hip hop fashion, and slang."

From wat i noe..there's 3 major parts of hip hop..1st streetball(which is the freestyle bskball), 2nd in relation to music(rapping and beatboxing), 3rd breakdancing..

since i was small..watching those hip hopers in the MTV..they look cool with those baggy tshirt and jeans..

frens wouldnt wanna look at me in those outfit i thk...rapping and beatboxing..i cant..
breakdancing..those few moves wont even able me to show it off in front of children..haha
bskball..wat i was playing is ordinary bskball and it's hard to swift to streetball..

perhaps one day i would be in tat outfit but hope tat time i'm not too old to fit it..haha..

for the music genre of hip hop..i leave it for nex time as it's kinda hard to explain..

"YO!! fOr thOse pros ganG..pls coMment me if Thr's any Mistakes"

baC From Hell!!!

2009-06-19T19:58:00.000-07:00

it's 7.45am..
i'm drving to bskball court..
when i saw the red light, i stepped on the brake..
suddenly i feel tat the car din slow down..
the stupid brake not functioning as last week when i take to service, maybe the foreman make some mistake on it..
the whole car rush towards the junction and luckily i manage to turn the steering b4 the car knock me..
if not i won be sitting here to type my blog d..haha
hell man...it was so dangerous...

Sry to all of U..

2009-06-19T08:21:00.000-07:00

theres sth happen this tues...
i din expect i'll did tat..
i was kinda stress but i shdnt shout at my fren i noe..
it;s about the assessment..my role play..
our class rep shd hv plan which group to present for the mock meeting role play..but he din..
so when teacher ask him..he jz point at her group..as she doesnt prepare anything..i volunteer to go out to present..
ok so tat is settled..
after tat the class rep have to decide the sequence of group presentation..which also shd be decided earlier...
i was kinda angry v him as why he always did it last minutes and mk ppl bz v his decision...
then i did a big mistake..i shout at jIaXin..i din realli mean it
realli realli sry i wana say.. seems like everyone is blaming me..
but about the changing of the sequence for presentation, i swear that it's not my idea..
so i decided to fix it and everything goes as the voting result...
i've tried to fix it and i hope u all will forgv me..sry to her..
sry to Jia XIn..
and srY to CHiewTSI..

shuT Up!!!

2009-05-18T21:20:00.000-07:00

why why and why they like to c0NTrol so Much...
this is my life and it shdnt be under UR conTrol...
since u plan everything without asking for my agreement..then wat's the meaning i live in this world..being ur pUpPeT???
i live my own life and
i din ask for ur support but at least gv me some freedom to do wat i wanna do...
i believe i'm mature enough to know wat i shd do...
so StAy AwAy and let me do wat i wanna do...
as usual..
control too much doesnt really make things good..it will only make it worse..
y cant u UndeRstAND!!!!

life is not easy...

2009-05-17T09:46:00.000-07:00

this wasnt a good month for me...
my car always break down in this month and i cant even remember how many times d..
1st the wire loose...
then the water tank leak...
after fixing all these..i found tat i had a broken exhaust paip and there's a cut on one of the tyre...
now my air-cond had prob too...
mb it's the prob of compressor or gas leak...i hvnt check...
and lastly, i cut my hand when i'm slicing the carrot 2day...****
gosh..gv me a break..i'm very tired and i'm sick of all these prob...
working until 12am everyday is enough for me to sleep and snore like a pig d...
prob away please....

experience..

2009-05-10T16:30:00.000-07:00

a perfectionist...he's trying to make himself perfect by gaining knowledge and experience throughout every things in every field..

u can say tat he's greedy...coz it's impossible to do so...

from music to sport, art to calligraphy, he try to learn everything in it...

wishing himself could be a perfect guy..freak..

and now he is cooking...being a chef(temporary only) in a restaurant was nvr come to his mind...

he dun realli like to cook..he prefer making dessert...but since he had been allocated to the kitchen...it's nt a bad thing to try...being a hot guy who can cook..isn't it nice..??

i'm working in a restaurant together with a few staff from nepal....it's hard to communicate v them actualli as i'm not quite understand their english..

bside, they way they do their work is different with me...wat i'm trying to say is both way may works as well but they dun like when i use my method..so i hv to work by their way...and it's not quite comfortable for me...

using the method..making me feel like i'm so useless as it will only make me work slower and less efficient...this is wat ppl called "chicken leg duck hand"...haha..

anyway, as time goes by..i can fit well in their working condition by working with their method..

and i get to learn a lot of things about cooking...

so it's good to learn a new skill for this perfectionist...

job??money..

2009-04-20T08:10:00.000-07:00

driving on the road...
listening to the boring music...
walking in the shopping mall alone...
looking for a job...

i've jz lost my job..the supervisor said i can call her bac within this week..but when i called,she said she found another person d...so i hv to look around for other job...i've asked every shop in the shopping mall..and no vacancy is available for me...aiks...i'm short of money d...cant blieve it's so hard to find a job..i'm nt choosy..i can work anytime, as anything..but yet i'm still hvnt find a job..it's the 3rd day of my holiday d..if i still cant get any, then i'm in trouble...

i've drove and walked for whole day d...tired..it's tired than working...help!!!

WTF!!!

2009-03-27T05:31:00.000-07:00

test result release today...

and i cant blieve i'm the one who get the lowest marks in the class...

they asked me..

"u din cheat in the test is it?".."wat for being so honest..see..there's no benefit to be honest.."

wtf...almost whole class is cheating...

although it's jz a test..but i realli very angry v it...

guess wat..most of them get A or A-...but i get a B..

and they are telling me cheating is the best way to achieve it...

shit them...

i dun blieve tat i cant get an A in my next test without cheating..

u guys jz wait n see...

WhY?!@#$%^&

2009-03-05T07:32:00.000-08:00

why do i always have to deal v 'complicated' gals??

or maybe i'm not 'complicated' enough to deal v gals??

or gals are always tat 'complicated'??

why things are always so complicated...

dun ask me wat happen,,i jz simply type

but if there's anyone who can answer my question..plz plz drop a comment..

Start FRom Here

2009-02-18T01:20:00.000-08:00

it's a nice album..

this evening..i cant blieve i've spent one hour to listen to this album..

one hour..doing nth..jz sit there and purely listen to the tracks..

i cant believe i did tat..which mean this album is nice and it able to attract u..

i dun realli like jazz and it's the 1st time i go into it deeply..

i guess i've fell into jazz..

this album brings a strong lonely feel..it depicts the feeling and thought of a lonely person in a buzy city..it's kinda personal..the lyrics and melodies are precisely applied to describe those feelings...

try to imagine urself living in a condo alone..looking through the window at night..wat u can see is a buzy city which no one cares about the wat u feels..

that's the feeling..

hmm...no much i can describe about it..it's hard to describe it by word..

u gotta listen to it by ur own..

thx to wilson for recommend it to me..

and now i strongly recommend this album to all of u

wasted

2009-02-10T23:47:00.000-08:00

this morning..i flipped through my high school annual magazine..

looking at the photo of the students who achived good results..

the name of the students listed..showing their achievement in various field..

sports, martial art, calligraphy, art, bla bla bla..

none of them hv my name..

and then i realise tat..

wat hv i done for these few yrs..

dreaming??

i'm so envy with them..

i'm good in nth..and i've wasted so my time dreaming in high school...

i wish i could back to the past..

maybe ppl will b able to attach importance to me, feel my existence..if i work hard to improve myself...

different from now..i got nth..no money, no talent, no look, no everything..

shit..i gotta work hard n stop dreaming d...

Good boY gon3 BAD!!!!

2009-02-10T01:18:00.000-08:00

many ppl thk tat i'm always mama's good boy..

maybe i am..coz my mum is very strict to me..

from my hair, friends, till outing..everything is under her control..

i noe maybe it's a way for her to show her concern..but it's too over d...

lack of communication is the major problem i thk...

as time goes by...there r many secret among my family members...

dun u feel it's too weird to hv such family??

i mean..wat kind of family is this...

a family that the son cant share their interest v the mother..

their cant agree with each other in most topic...

i'm wondering y parents always thk tat they are rite...

jz bcoz they are older than us??

y cant they accept our opinion??

when they dun wanna listen to us...there's always generation gaps..

when there's generation gaps..problems appear...like me..

i hv a fren..he's very nice..and he got a wonderful family..which i always hope for..

his mum is very friendly..his parents can communicate well with their children..

they can share their feelings and thought...

i understand maybe sumtimes they'll hv arguments..but tat is unavoidable...

unlike mine..war that never end..

honestly..i hope i'm part of their family..

everytime i came bac from their home..it's like the end of sweet dreams for me..

ppl used to said..there's no place better than own home..

but for me..there's always a place tat is better than own home..

when can i get my own life..the life i always dream for...

i'm sick of following her instruction..

wat for be a good boy...i hate my life..

i wanna do wat i feel to do..

i wanna go where i feel to go..

i wanna talk whenever i feel to talk..

tell me when this day will cum...

HapPy B!rThday T0 me....thx a lot..

2008-12-13T07:42:00.000-08:00

i'm back...haha..ytd was my b'day...i din intend to celebrate o wat...jz hanging out v my classmate (xun lee aka professor, jiaying-the wife of professor, hidayah~the one who always laugh in class, ker shing, ai phing and zun yeek aka the brother in our class) for movie & redbox...i tot they dunno it's my b'day...

after class ended at 1pm, we drive to gurney..and i jz gotta tell tat zun yeek's driving skill.....cool!!! he can suddenly break in the middle on the road...and wat....get horn by other drivers...haha..sumtimes he's jz too funny d..

about 5 sth...i was singing in redbox...suddenly 3 of my frens rush into the room and wish me happy B!rthDay...with present in their hands....i was realli surprise..i din expect it...

there's nth special happened when we hanging out in gurney..but for me..i realli glad tat many of my frens rmb my b'day..i realli very satisfied d...it's more than wat i always hope for...

they bought a Sony earphone for me..which i always wanted to buy..they told me they've sent a spy bside me...and i'm still wondering who's tat..haha

this is the present from chiew tsi, huey ling, hidayah, jiaying, ai phing & ker shing....thx to them...

this is wat my professor bought for me...thx to him too...haha

..thx for those who sent their wishes for me too...ching yee, khur zhong, shi hui, soo may, zhen yi, hui juan, chiew tsi, wendy, wilson, huey theng, eugina, thiam wang, tiong liang, jie ying, beng chuen, ai phing, maclen, sheh yhing, ewe lim, ah shan, sheryn, kok choon, johan, melissa, yshuen, kok min, alfred, yen ling, carrie, pei sing, jax, sik thye, ching ying, jessy, cheng hoe, boon yan, evon, sean yang, sandra, kelvin...

thx to all of them...i guess this is the most special and funniest b'day for me...

AnYth!ng BuT OrdiNARy!!!

2008-10-03T22:02:00.000-07:00

"I'm going to clearly be myself, I write wat i feel, I never worry wat others thk"

I jz read an artical about avril..wat she said was right..

"I'm gonna dress wat's me, I'm gonna act what's me and i'm gonna sing wat's me"

when u were born v such creativity..y mz u hide it!? jz bcoz we worry about wt others thk!? tat's ridiculous!!!

I was thking too much in this holiday...but this artical gv me an inspiration on it..

a clear example we can see..yup, a 24 yrs old punk-rocker is everything you can thk of, tat's everything but ordinary, of course..she's a dynamic spirit, a true wild child..who dare to fulfill her dream....and she always knew wat she should do..

holiday...

2008-09-29T01:57:00.001-07:00

long time din update my blog d..finally i finished my final and i'm in holiday now..
i'm very boring at home..doing nth..

take a look at my timetable in da holiday>>>
sleep>>breakfast>>Lunch(i called it brunch as i hv breakfast and lunch at the same time)>>basketball>>on9>>TV>>sms>>sleep
so meaningless...haha

i manage to went to redbox with sum old frens last saturday..meeting all of them make me relax..fooling around..no pressure about study...

after came back from pg, suddenly i got some inspiration to compose again..
but i cant realli finished a song..all my workings go half way only...then i duno how should i continue d...

someone tell me that falling in love will inspire me in composing..i'm not sure i can or not..haha..
writing without knowing who i'm writing to will affect my composition? i dunno..

if there's someone who like composing too..i hope u guys will gv me some opinion on this..i'm really short of idea d..

aLonE...

2008-08-09T08:36:00.000-07:00

tonite...felling down..

after i noe about it...dunno y..

i shouldnt feel so...but i felt so....

i tot i've found a good fren..

but now...nt anymore...

last time...my sadness,happiness will be noticed even jz a chat..

now...not anymore...watever i felt won be noticed even i tell...

things jz change...

it jz prove to me that how weak is a frenship...

sumtimes i really think that frens are not reliable...

now i even feel more....

i guess it's time for me to gv up this frenship..

the best for me..is to stand alone, walk alone, run alone....

life span...

2008-07-18T07:16:00.000-07:00

sometimes..
i always wonder tat where will i go after i die..?
who noes?

when we're babies, we cry for everything we want...then there'll be someone ready to serve us..

when we're children, we go to sch every weekdays..after school..homework of course..after homework..tv..

when we're teenagers, we hang out with frens..we argue with parents about our interest, our dreams...

when we're adults, we married n live with our love one...

when we're old, we hope everything for our children are the best...

after that? end of our lives...

seems very short n meaningless? so y ppl struggling and trying hard to achieve their dreams, their interest?

jz to make their life meaningful?

I wanna be.....

2008-05-09T07:13:00.000-07:00

everyone hv their own dream to be wat they want...sum wanna be model, artist..?

it may sounds very irrealistic 4 other ppl when they heard tat u wanna be famous....but it's still a dream rite?

for me...my parents planned everything 4 me...i'm tking accounting nw...it's their choice actually...i noe it's 4 my own gd...it's all about future, career and money.....

BUT..did they ever ask about wat i wan actually....NOPE..they nvr...!!

4 me...sumtimes life isn't all about money....i noe money is important..but if u cant do wat u want..they wat 4 u hv so much money...it's meaningless...

since i'm in 2ndary..i always dream about wat i wanna be...sumday.....

i wanna be a musician...or mb hv my own studio...ridiculous rite...haha..

but this is true...it's life is beautiful v music arround us?

all i wanna do is wat an ordinary teenager will do....i jz wanna be like them..teenagers...do wat they like...hanging out v frens...basketball...dancing...singing...hving da hairstyle they lk...wearing wat they wan to wear...

i mean...this is the most important part in our lifetime....parents alwaz say...study hard now and u'll earn lots of money in da future...then u can do wat u like after tat..but hey...don tell me u'll be in hip hop when u r 50..coz ur parents dun allow when u r 20....sumtimes..things cant be done once it's past...

i wanna be like her....my idol~~Marie Digby...

she's half Irish and half Japanese...she can sing..she play guitar, piano..composing...

it's all about dreams...and finally..her album released on 8th of april...amazing....?

EverydAY is valentine's day.....

2008-03-30T05:59:00.000-07:00

i got this in newspaper....tk a look...everyday is valentines...i thk guys will broke...haha

14th jan~diary day-in a whole new yr, u gotta plan ur future v ur loved one..write it down in a diary, mk a great plan with her...

14th feb~valentine’s day-according to western traditional, gal should gv guy chocolate if u like him(for single gal)..

14th mar~white day-this is da day 4 u to know whether he likes u or not…or he accept ur chocolate jz bcoz he likes to eat chocolate..if he likes you too, he’ll gv u white sweets(the response by the guy)..

14th apr~candy day-sweet love journey begin…

14th may~rose day-u should let him/her know that u wanna be v him/her forever or jz fren…buy rose 2 represent wat u r thking n gv it to him/her on tat day..white for ordinary fren, yellow for intimate, red for lover

14th jun~kiss day-this is da day where u’ll see lots of couple kissing..don get jealous..haha

14th july~silver day- buy a pair of silver ring to prove ur love....be ready to broke..

14th aug~green day-should go out together..such as picnic..swimming..climbing..(should b related v nature)

14th sep~music & photo day-finally,ur practice get to use today..sing to her…although u r not gd in singing, but sing v ur heart coz she’ll feel it..tk sum photo to capture ur happiness tat day

14th oct~wine day-hv a candle light dinner, of course v wine..

14th nov~orange & movie day-movie in cinema v orange juice

14th dec~hug day-"I wan hug hug"…haha..tat's wat couple will say..

change?

2008-03-14T09:42:00.000-07:00

from secondary sch till now...i've been changing a lot....

but i'm wondering...

is these changes are good 4 me or not..?

from no friend...to lots of friends..BUT..most v motif..

after they achieved wat they want...

one by one of them..getting away from me...

is that really happening on me?...or jz wat i feel..?

i hope it's not real...

but recently..i've meet a good friend....

we can talk in everything.....n i really trust her...hope that..

she won let me down and...

of course i won let her down too....haha

PS: tat gal got bf d...n wat i mean is ordinary fren, not lk wat u all r thking...4 those dirty-minded...pls wake up..

thx...frens...

2007-12-25T04:25:00.000-08:00

ok..tis is a late post....sry for late....

12nd of dec....it is my b'day...every yr....not many will remember or know about it....

as i'm getting familiar with the boring b'day....this yr...all of u r making it special.....thx a lot...
it was a vry meaningful day to me....all of my old frens...khai sheng, zhen yi, wilson, thiam wang, yee tong, ching yee, beng chuen, tiong liang, ming han, soo may, lai tieng, sheryn, hooi ting, cheng hoe, shyang shi, yean ching and ewe lim.....

my college frens...huey ling, jia xin, guek ngoh, yee hui, jin foong, meng yi, jiaying, hui juan, ai phing, ker shing, shi hui, harn sze, theam khim, boon yan, xiang ting, sotong, huey jiun, and also siew siew.....

my frenster pals....stary, december, sweet heart, yuan zhen, sean yang, kk, elaine, pei sing, shu wei, yen, kok min, seh siong, leon woo, mr. pee, ying.....

and also wendy..she was the 1st one who wish me....maclen, the funny guy....wish to be the 1st one but he jz manage to get the 2nd place....haha thx a lot frens....u all r making my b'day a special day 4 me this yr.....

the "best" trip.......

2007-12-25T03:58:00.000-08:00

here's the story....22 and 23 of dec..i was on a trip to bkt tinggi....the trip was actually one night at bkt tinggi and one night at genting...as my family don wanna go genting...so we had to follow the other bus bac in the 2nd day....the 1st day at bkt tinggi...it was very relaxing...it really is a nice place to relax urself...

when we check in 2 the resort...oh gosh...it was the worst resort i ever been to...not only me...even other ppl also complain about the resort...there's bad odour in the room and yet...it was very dirty....fine then...bad things start happen to me....when i bath...sudden my spec broke into half.....oh shit!! it was the 1st day of the trip and i cant see anything d.....after that we had buffet dinner..i cant even see wat dishes is tat and i had to ask my bro to tell me wat's the dishes...

the second day....again..buffet breakfast....i cant see anything again.....

we follow the bus to genting after breakfast.....

as the other bus will departure only on 4 pm...we had to stay in genting till 4 pm.....

in genting....i walk everywhere and i cant see anything....so..i cant involved in any games in theme park.....jz a boring walk....

4 pm d..it's time to get on bus....it was a VIP couch.....the seat was very comfortable....

about 6 pm, the bus stop at Juru to let us go to toilet...as i'm listening to music and i cant see....i duno tat the bus driver wan us to get down the bus coz he wana turn off the engine...so i sit in the bus alone...suddenly a guy come in the bus and yell at me very loud....scolding me and asking me to get down....shit! wat a rude driver....no wonder he's stil a driver even he's old...wat kind of service is tat...!

about 9pm..we reach autocity d...suddenly we feel very weird coz the driver is going to the path which lead us to pg bridge....he 4got to drop us in b'worth.....my dad quickily walk to talk to the driver...they argued the driver said that we should inform him earlier coz he will 4got if we dont...oh shit...we are following a trip and we aspect the driver to know where to drop us...and he blame us coz not remind him......finally he drop us by the road side and ask a car to pick us...

the car drop us at chai leng park....we have to walk bac to our home......shit.....it was the 'best' trip i've ever joined...'thx' to the driver...

nice day....

2007-12-21T07:47:00.000-08:00

wahaha..finally 2day i manage to go yam cha v ewe lim and wil...it's really a nice day and i'm kidda enjoy chatting and drinking v frens in coffee shop....when u feel like boring or sick v studies...sometimes meeting old frens will be a gd way to cope with it....

old frens...long time didnt see them d ..so there should be many things to chat

when i met them...it jz like feeling very glad to see them again...and i really appreciate our frenship....maybe noeing new frens is a gd thing...but mostly u'll feel that old frens is often better than new one becoz it took a lot of time to knowing each other...close to each other...n trust them......

so guys....u all r always my best buddies.....

& it's good to know u all...

should I.....

2007-09-24T20:57:00.000-07:00

i've been thinking for a long time about this...sometimes keep getting ourselves to involve in things happen around us is very tired...so i thinking that try to seperate myself from all the things happen around....stop thinking about all these things...it's time for me to get myself refocused on who i am..,alone, as an individual. without my friends...who am i?who will i be?can i still be the same me?well...i'm quite accustomed to the life of my own self,without other ppl...i'm quite enjoy this kind of feeling...i rather stay at home doing my own stuff,enjoying myself than going out v friends as i already fimiliar v the life like this.....being the true of myself....we can do wat we like.....maybe other ppl will think that i'm selfish coz i don wan to care about wat ppl around me thinking...but sometimes too care about wat ppl think of us will jz let us exhausted...at home..alone...i can do all my likes...music...haha...i can be a truly 'me'.....coz whenever we face our friends...we'll surely change into a different ppl automatically...this is not that we are lying..not being our true self....but we jz wan to suit to our friends...to communicate...as we are always playing different role in different situation......sometimes,it's hard to explain......................................

headache....

2007-09-04T21:47:00.000-07:00

today wake up at 12 noon..felt my head very heavy n pain....it's the first time i sleep until noon....break my sleeping record d.... haha...long time didnt blogging d.....exam is coming....bt i'm still blur at my revision..wat should i do..? sometimes i really feel that there's a lot for me to think......many many stuff......wat i wan is jz to be an ordinary teenager.....wat i wanna do is jz the stuff an ordianary teenager will do.....hanging out v friends.....but.. y i cant?.....i jz hope this exam will pass soon then i'll hv my own time again.....haha..........

miss those kids....

2007-06-02T19:07:00.000-07:00

hmm....i'm not teaching at british council for 2 weeks already....when i was there,feeling that those kids are really naugthy n they are really driving me nuts,but now,feeling like without their noise,i'm not fimiliar v it.hope they wont make the teachers there crazy...haha...looking at them running here n there really refresh my mind when i was small,those face with no pressure,but jz happiness....haiz....miss the time when i was a kids.....no like now,many things to do,to think,to manage.....anyway,i'll always miss them.....

life are full v hope n also problems....

2007-05-11T07:51:00.000-07:00

life....haiz...sometimes feels like life r full v hope when getting on with music..with friends....gather around...but soon...all of us will be getting on our own path....
sometimes when my bro n parents argue....i really hate it coz it feels very messy n noisy...i jz wan a peaceful life doing the things i want....doing the things i love....sometimes really feel that living alone n nobody bother me is a very enjoyable life.....haha...dunno when can i feel it....