wasted

this morning..i flipped through my high school annual magazine..

looking at the photo of the students who achived good results..

the name of the students listed..showing their achievement in various field..

sports, martial art, calligraphy, art, bla bla bla..

none of them hv my name..

and then i realise tat..

wat hv i done for these few yrs..

dreaming??

i'm so envy with them..

i'm good in nth..and i've wasted so my time dreaming in high school...

i wish i could back to the past..

maybe ppl will b able to attach importance to me, feel my existence..if i work hard to improve myself...

different from now..i got nth..no money, no talent, no look, no everything..

shit..i gotta work hard n stop dreaming d...

Read more

Good boY gon3 BAD!!!!

many ppl thk tat i'm always mama's good boy..

maybe i am..coz my mum is very strict to me..

from my hair, friends, till outing..everything is under her control..

i noe maybe it's a way for her to show her concern..but it's too over d...

lack of communication is the major problem i thk...

as time goes by...there r many secret among my family members...

dun u feel it's too weird to hv such family??

i mean..wat kind of family is this...

a family that the son cant share their interest v the mother..

their cant agree with each other in most topic...

i'm wondering y parents always thk tat they are rite...

jz bcoz they are older than us??

y cant they accept our opinion??

when they dun wanna listen to us...there's always generation gaps..

when there's generation gaps..problems appear...like me..

i hv a fren..he's very nice..and he got a wonderful family..which i always hope for..

his mum is very friendly..his parents can communicate well with their children..

they can share their feelings and thought...

i understand maybe sumtimes they'll hv arguments..but tat is unavoidable...

unlike mine..war that never end..

honestly..i hope i'm part of their family..

everytime i came bac from their home..it's like the end of sweet dreams for me..

ppl used to said..there's no place better than own home..

but for me..there's always a place tat is better than own home..

when can i get my own life..the life i always dream for...

i'm sick of following her instruction..

wat for be a good boy...i hate my life..

i wanna do wat i feel to do..

i wanna go where i feel to go..

i wanna talk whenever i feel to talk..

tell me when this day will cum...

Read more

HapPy B!rThday T0 me....thx a lot..

i'm back...haha..ytd was my b'day...i din intend to celebrate o wat...jz hanging out v my classmate (xun lee aka professor, jiaying-the wife of professor, hidayah~the one who always laugh in class, ker shing, ai phing and zun yeek aka the brother in our class) for movie & redbox...i tot they dunno it's my b'day...

after class ended at 1pm, we drive to gurney..and i jz gotta tell tat zun yeek's driving skill.....cool!!! he can suddenly break in the middle on the road...and wat....get horn by other drivers...haha..sumtimes he's jz too funny d..

about 5 sth...i was singing in redbox...suddenly 3 of my frens rush into the room and wish me happy B!rthDay...with present in their hands....i was realli surprise..i din expect it...

there's nth special happened when we hanging out in gurney..but for me..i realli glad tat many of my frens rmb my b'day..i realli very satisfied d...it's more than wat i always hope for...

they bought a Sony earphone for me..which i always wanted to buy..they told me they've sent a spy bside me...and i'm still wondering who's tat..haha

this is the present from chiew tsi, huey ling, hidayah, jiaying, ai phing & ker shing....thx to them...

this is wat my professor bought for me...thx to him too...haha

..thx for those who sent their wishes for me too...ching yee, khur zhong, shi hui, soo may, zhen yi, hui juan, chiew tsi, wendy, wilson, huey theng, eugina, thiam wang, tiong liang, jie ying, beng chuen, ai phing, maclen, sheh yhing, ewe lim, ah shan, sheryn, kok choon, johan, melissa, yshuen, kok min, alfred, yen ling, carrie, pei sing, jax, sik thye, ching ying, jessy, cheng hoe, boon yan, evon, sean yang, sandra, kelvin...

thx to all of them...i guess this is the most special and funniest b'day for me...

Read more

AnYth!ng BuT OrdiNARy!!!

"I'm going to clearly be myself, I write wat i feel, I never worry wat others thk"

I jz read an artical about avril..wat she said was right..

"I'm gonna dress wat's me, I'm gonna act what's me and i'm gonna sing wat's me"

when u were born v such creativity..y mz u hide it!? jz bcoz we worry about wt others thk!? tat's ridiculous!!!

I was thking too much in this holiday...but this artical gv me an inspiration on it..

a clear example we can see..yup, a 24 yrs old punk-rocker is everything you can thk of, tat's everything but ordinary, of course..she's a dynamic spirit, a true wild child..who dare to fulfill her dream....and she always knew wat she should do..

Read more

holiday...

long time din update my blog d..finally i finished my final and i'm in holiday now..
i'm very boring at home..doing nth..

take a look at my timetable in da holiday>>>
sleep>>breakfast>>Lunch(i called it brunch as i hv breakfast and lunch at the same time)>>basketball>>on9>>TV>>sms>>sleep
so meaningless...haha

i manage to went to redbox with sum old frens last saturday..meeting all of them make me relax..fooling around..no pressure about study...

after came back from pg, suddenly i got some inspiration to compose again..
but i cant realli finished a song..all my workings go half way only...then i duno how should i continue d...

someone tell me that falling in love will inspire me in composing..i'm not sure i can or not..haha..
writing without knowing who i'm writing to will affect my composition? i dunno..

if there's someone who like composing too..i hope u guys will gv me some opinion on this..i'm really short of idea d..

Read more

aLonE...

tonite...felling down..

after i noe about it...dunno y..

i shouldnt feel so...but i felt so....

i tot i've found a good fren..

but now...nt anymore...

last time...my sadness,happiness will be noticed even jz a chat..

now...not anymore...watever i felt won be noticed even i tell...

things jz change...

it jz prove to me that how weak is a frenship...

sumtimes i really think that frens are not reliable...

now i even feel more....

i guess it's time for me to gv up this frenship..

the best for me..is to stand alone, walk alone, run alone....

Read more

life span...

sometimes..
i always wonder tat where will i go after i die..?
who noes?

when we're babies, we cry for everything we want...then there'll be someone ready to serve us..

when we're children, we go to sch every weekdays..after school..homework of course..after homework..tv..

when we're teenagers, we hang out with frens..we argue with parents about our interest, our dreams...

when we're adults, we married n live with our love one...

when we're old, we hope everything for our children are the best...

after that? end of our lives...

seems very short n meaningless? so y ppl struggling and trying hard to achieve their dreams, their interest?

jz to make their life meaningful?

Read more