where do i belong...

seriously im gonna explode if these continue..
i mean, wtf in this world y everyone around was trying to give me a hard time..

Mum, what are u doin by having red eyes aftr crying..
it is worth to do so?
i hate when i see it n seriously no one gonna heed it..
go on n live ur life..
u dn hv to treat it by heart n mk urself suffer since he din even care..

Dad, wtf are u trying to show with ur face..I dun care if u are in bad mood with mum jz dn get it affect everyone in the hs..
u mk me wanna leave this hs..
n stop creating prob, even if u din contribute anything except money..
at least dn create prob n mess..

y she thk im the selfish one while all of them are doin the selfish stuff..
who would care enough for this house?
everytm trouble happen, he's the 1st one to run away..
NOT ME!

Evelyn,
i jz wanna prepare fr my exam peacefully,
few more days to go only, y cnt u do ur own thing..
Or rest..
dn said i hv time to do other stuff or wt..i jz wanna do my thing, what i wanna do
even if u din txt me, or text me less often, bt the way u talk jz dn mk it feel gd..
the 1st msg signifies the start of war d..
i know we had a lot of prob,
bt fr nw,, can u jz pause everythng..
im very very tired..
whn u in kl stdy, u also gt thing to complain,
whn u bac holiday, another thing again..
i really wanna move to a silent place..

Everything changed..a lot more than i expected..
shd have realized everythng cnt be rewind..
she acted normal..very normal..i feel warm to have her react so lk a good fren...
but i know it's difference..nt lk we used to be..
im getting more n more invisible in front of them..
no matter how hard i try..
the lame one will be better than me..outstanding than me..

all of these make me realized that i should leave everything behind and walk on..
and money works fine for everything..
look at how he spend on her..
money can make him looks so elegance..
money can buy respect from people..
money makes you visible..
friendship is all fake without you looking cool
suddenly sincerity looks so weak compared with money..

He said im ego..
is it?
but no one know what's happening more than i know..
so he cant judge it

respect!

yes , finally she said it out..im jz a fucking useless kid no matter how much i did..pathetic..thy are always right..im always the wrong one..thking abt how ur husband treat u when two of u hv prob..who's standing bside u..
but nw i thk u deserve it..cz u nvr care abt how ppl feel..u do what u like..
im trying to respect..bt if it's all like throwing into the sea..thn i won do it anymore..what for..
i keep quiet everytm and im trying to let u win..bt this doesnt mean im wrong..
don always talk abt ppl n thk u are always the right one..think abt urself bfr u tell someone off..
n how much they did for you, why they are always right? thy jz being selfish n step aside from u..tat's all..
Ans me whn i talk to u pls..

Tidy my notes..i feel lk im goin to fail my exam..the notes are so messy..really duno whr to start and how to stdy..

new life new soul..

jz met all those silly college mate..nop..frens i shd use..
miss....all the life back to college..with all those playful housemate..
yea..sometimes, we'll hv dissatisfaction..
but this is life..who cares about it afterward..

but one thing that i very care..
i wish i can go back to that moment..
the moment that i enjoy true college life
we play we game we study..
no worries..
we talk about gals, we peep..
we fell in love for gals but never take action..
it's fun...

chatted with ct...
other than u,
she understd me the most..
she told me about truth..the ugly one..
that u won like, but still..it's truth..
when i know kc v danny..i feel slightly dissapointed..
i duno what's that means..

i jz know..love is the most important for me to go on for a relationship..
i know what i shd do..
bt i can't..
cz i cn't find any that better than you..

love song..
i got lots of lyrics for it..
but love song is simple..
it doesn't hv to come to an end..
it doesn't hv to be concluded..

in reality..
not so easy..
it's nt as simple as u thk..
and not as simple as u wan..
truth are always ugly..
coz u can't choose what u thk is nice..

sumtimes i hope to be single..
why..
coz thn i cn escape to all the prob..
but it's nt forever..

she said, when it's time, God will choose for us..
i hope so..
we'll see how....

so tired..
relationship btw human..actually i should't thk too much..
as long as we can get along well, with anyone..
it's cool then

sometimes I just feel like no one understd me..but it's actually nt a big deal..
im not the only one being alone..
but sometimes..nt only friends..
but my parents..brothers..
all are lk..ishh..
shut up pls~ i wish i can said so..

Life = Dream

life's lk a dream..

dream everyday..

so that everyday u can dream..

dream to live..

and live to dream..

this is life..

no dream, no life..

no life, how to dream..