bejeweled

bejeweled..bejeweled..bejeweled..

tat's what i'll do when i miss her..

playing tat for the whole morning d..

i jz felt tat sth weird with her last nite..

but she said nth..

maybe i was thking too much..hope so..

prob hv to be solved..i hv to be responsible for it..

not gonna let her bear this all alone for sure..

all i worried is tat she would gv up if prob cant be solved..

would tat happen?

i believe in her..but i jz dun hv confidence to believe in myself..my ability..

summary of the days

bbq last nite..

sleep like thr's no noise around..

worried she'll starve so keep on ask her to eat..

who noes get scolded..for grumble like a nanny..

i duno she realli get annoyed or jz simply voiced out..

i dun mean to annoy her..

wanna show my concern..but i dun dare..

wat am i thking...

it's ok i'll wait..and wait..

doin my assignment throughout the whole nite while they are playing and movie..

most of them fell asleep at about 4pm..she woke up and walk to me..

saw me sleeping bside the chair she slept on..she asked me to sleep on it and so it tills the sun shine brightly..

woke me up in the morning with the sweet sweet voice..

and we went back to her house..

tot she could hv a big nap as everyone was tired..who noes she have sth to bz..

continue my assignment in her room while she went out..

fell asleep again after i done my assignment..

woke me up again and we went down for her favorite mee goreng..

we were worried about the period she went to kl as new sem is going to start d..

wat to do.. hv to be tough..

She is and she will be..

finally i can feel wat it's like to be appreciated..

i was so touched..

it's jz both of us cant believe wat's given to us..

so we do not hv confidence..

when she said she really need a lot of courages to do so..

i felt so sry to her..

as i'm the one who cause all these..

but we can face these together rite??

if i said so, i'll make it happen..

I'm back!

I'm back!

this time..it's aint about who..aint about wat..

coz it's about me..

assignments and test is due...and i'm still bejeweling in facebook..

everyone tot i'm so steady and still can relax while they all are bzing for their test and assignments..

yes i am..

but i duno y???

being lazy for days and i'm almost drown in the books..

yet i still can relax...

god save me i dun wanna die in such a young age..

how ever..i manage to found sth precious to me during my laziness..

thx a lot to the weekend which let me clear up my mind..

i can be better off and i am now..

instant noodle with brad paisley

i'm alone at hostel now..

hving instant noodles as i've broke..anyway,delicious..

currently listening to brad paisley's..

nice country song..

it's time to relax..

it's time to slow things down..

think about wat hv i done in the past..

result's coming out nex week..wonder how's hers..

how's mine..

i'm not confident v myself..

but it's not the time to thk about this now..

wanna study now..but i ended up with guitar strumming..

watched leehom concert's dvd..

the way he rearranged his song was amazing..

from hiphop, r&b, everything to rock..

he blaze among others..

and this remind me my eager to buy an electric guitar..

wonder how will it looks like??

will it be like this??

nop...stop dreaming..

maybe this..

a white custom gibson les paul..

electric guiTar??

went to meet my sifu on wed..
asked him a lots of things..
he bought a new blade..it's an ESp's co-brand..Ltd..
watching him playing v it..and he taught me some power chords..
i realise tat it's a new stuff to learn..
it's quite diff v acoustic and classical..
electric guitar isn't as simple as it looks..
fingering..overdrv..distortion..many things to be handled..
hmm...now i'm thking to have a deep explore in it..
but i cant afford to buy one yet
maybe after few mths...
as it's realli a new thing for me to learn..it's totally a new feeling..

human???

y is it so hard to be a human..

living in this world..

y we have to work so hard to satisfy the requirement of every fren?

y cant i jz be myself..

never tot they are so care about wat i've did..

y i mz work so hard to satisfy all of them..

and yet they cant feel my hard work..

i dun understand about the relationship between human..

i jz did wat i thk it's rite..

nvr tot things would be so serious..

wat shd i do??

i realli dunno..

i did a big mistake..??

who should i care the most..who shd decide that?

i need to be alone..

be like white paper..ignore wat ppl thk..

be myself..??

aiks..i would rather live in the jungle....

hip hop culture..in my mind..

i was being asked to post tis up..hehe..
cant believe she likes hiphop culture too as i like it so much..
anyhow..i dun dare to wear those baggy jeans and tshirt as i'm too thin d...
wat's hip hop actualli..for more detailed explanation..i've quoted some info from wikipedia..

"Hip hop is a cultural movement which developed in New York City in the early 1970s primarily among African Americans and Latin Americans. Hip hop's four main elements are MCing(often called rapping), DJing, graffiti writing, and breakdancing. Other elements include beatboxing, hip hop fashion, and slang."

From wat i noe..there's 3 major parts of hip hop..1st streetball(which is the freestyle bskball), 2nd in relation to music(rapping and beatboxing), 3rd breakdancing..

since i was small..watching those hip hopers in the MTV..they look cool with those baggy tshirt and jeans..

frens wouldnt wanna look at me in those outfit i thk...rapping and beatboxing..i cant..
breakdancing..those few moves wont even able me to show it off in front of children..haha
bskball..wat i was playing is ordinary bskball and it's hard to swift to streetball..

perhaps one day i would be in tat outfit but hope tat time i'm not too old to fit it..haha..

for the music genre of hip hop..i leave it for nex time as it's kinda hard to explain..

"YO!! fOr thOse pros ganG..pls coMment me if Thr's any Mistakes"

baC From Hell!!!

it's 7.45am..
i'm drving to bskball court..
when i saw the red light, i stepped on the brake..
suddenly i feel tat the car din slow down..
the stupid brake not functioning as last week when i take to service, maybe the foreman make some mistake on it..
the whole car rush towards the junction and luckily i manage to turn the steering b4 the car knock me..
if not i won be sitting here to type my blog d..haha
hell man...it was so dangerous...

Sry to all of U..

theres sth happen this tues...
i din expect i'll did tat..
i was kinda stress but i shdnt shout at my fren i noe..
it;s about the assessment..my role play..
our class rep shd hv plan which group to present for the mock meeting role play..but he din..
so when teacher ask him..he jz point at her group..as she doesnt prepare anything..i volunteer to go out to present..
ok so tat is settled..
after tat the class rep have to decide the sequence of group presentation..which also shd be decided earlier...
i was kinda angry v him as why he always did it last minutes and mk ppl bz v his decision...
then i did a big mistake..i shout at jIaXin..i din realli mean it
realli realli sry i wana say.. seems like everyone is blaming me..
but about the changing of the sequence for presentation, i swear that it's not my idea..
so i decided to fix it and everything goes as the voting result...
i've tried to fix it and i hope u all will forgv me..sry to her..
sry to Jia XIn..
and srY to CHiewTSI..

shuT Up!!!

why why and why they like to c0NTrol so Much...
this is my life and it shdnt be under UR conTrol...
since u plan everything without asking for my agreement..then wat's the meaning i live in this world..being ur pUpPeT???
i live my own life and
i din ask for ur support but at least gv me some freedom to do wat i wanna do...
i believe i'm mature enough to know wat i shd do...
so StAy AwAy and let me do wat i wanna do...
as usual..
control too much doesnt really make things good..it will only make it worse..
y cant u UndeRstAND!!!!

life is not easy...

this wasnt a good month for me...
my car always break down in this month and i cant even remember how many times d..
1st the wire loose...
then the water tank leak...
after fixing all these..i found tat i had a broken exhaust paip and there's a cut on one of the tyre...
now my air-cond had prob too...
mb it's the prob of compressor or gas leak...i hvnt check...
and lastly, i cut my hand when i'm slicing the carrot 2day...****
gosh..gv me a break..i'm very tired and i'm sick of all these prob...
working until 12am everyday is enough for me to sleep and snore like a pig d...
prob away please....

experience..

a perfectionist...he's trying to make himself perfect by gaining knowledge and experience throughout every things in every field..

u can say tat he's greedy...coz it's impossible to do so...

from music to sport, art to calligraphy, he try to learn everything in it...

wishing himself could be a perfect guy..freak..

and now he is cooking...being a chef(temporary only) in a restaurant was nvr come to his mind...

he dun realli like to cook..he prefer making dessert...but since he had been allocated to the kitchen...it's nt a bad thing to try...being a hot guy who can cook..isn't it nice..??

i'm working in a restaurant together with a few staff from nepal....it's hard to communicate v them actualli as i'm not quite understand their english..

bside, they way they do their work is different with me...wat i'm trying to say is both way may works as well but they dun like when i use my method..so i hv to work by their way...and it's not quite comfortable for me...

using the method..making me feel like i'm so useless as it will only make me work slower and less efficient...this is wat ppl called "chicken leg duck hand"...haha..

anyway, as time goes by..i can fit well in their working condition by working with their method..

and i get to learn a lot of things about cooking...

so it's good to learn a new skill for this perfectionist...

job??money..

driving on the road...
listening to the boring music...
walking in the shopping mall alone...
looking for a job...

i've jz lost my job..the supervisor said i can call her bac within this week..but when i called,she said she found another person d...so i hv to look around for other job...i've asked every shop in the shopping mall..and no vacancy is available for me...aiks...i'm short of money d...cant blieve it's so hard to find a job..i'm nt choosy..i can work anytime, as anything..but yet i'm still hvnt find a job..it's the 3rd day of my holiday d..if i still cant get any, then i'm in trouble...

i've drove and walked for whole day d...tired..it's tired than working...help!!!

WTF!!!

test result release today...

and i cant blieve i'm the one who get the lowest marks in the class...

they asked me..

"u din cheat in the test is it?".."wat for being so honest..see..there's no benefit to be honest.."

wtf...almost whole class is cheating...

although it's jz a test..but i realli very angry v it...

guess wat..most of them get A or A-...but i get a B..

and they are telling me cheating is the best way to achieve it...

shit them...

i dun blieve tat i cant get an A in my next test without cheating..

u guys jz wait n see...

WhY?!@#$%^&

why do i always have to deal v 'complicated' gals??

or maybe i'm not 'complicated' enough to deal v gals??

or gals are always tat 'complicated'??

why things are always so complicated...

dun ask me wat happen,,i jz simply type

but if there's anyone who can answer my question..plz plz drop a comment..

Start FRom Here

it's a nice album..

this evening..i cant blieve i've spent one hour to listen to this album..

one hour..doing nth..jz sit there and purely listen to the tracks..

i cant believe i did tat..which mean this album is nice and it able to attract u..

i dun realli like jazz and it's the 1st time i go into it deeply..

i guess i've fell into jazz..

this album brings a strong lonely feel..it depicts the feeling and thought of a lonely person in a buzy city..it's kinda personal..the lyrics and melodies are precisely applied to describe those feelings...

try to imagine urself living in a condo alone..looking through the window at night..wat u can see is a buzy city which no one cares about the wat u feels..

that's the feeling..

hmm...no much i can describe about it..it's hard to describe it by word..

u gotta listen to it by ur own..

thx to wilson for recommend it to me..

and now i strongly recommend this album to all of u

wasted

this morning..i flipped through my high school annual magazine..

looking at the photo of the students who achived good results..

the name of the students listed..showing their achievement in various field..

sports, martial art, calligraphy, art, bla bla bla..

none of them hv my name..

and then i realise tat..

wat hv i done for these few yrs..

dreaming??

i'm so envy with them..

i'm good in nth..and i've wasted so my time dreaming in high school...

i wish i could back to the past..

maybe ppl will b able to attach importance to me, feel my existence..if i work hard to improve myself...

different from now..i got nth..no money, no talent, no look, no everything..

shit..i gotta work hard n stop dreaming d...

Good boY gon3 BAD!!!!

many ppl thk tat i'm always mama's good boy..

maybe i am..coz my mum is very strict to me..

from my hair, friends, till outing..everything is under her control..

i noe maybe it's a way for her to show her concern..but it's too over d...

lack of communication is the major problem i thk...

as time goes by...there r many secret among my family members...

dun u feel it's too weird to hv such family??

i mean..wat kind of family is this...

a family that the son cant share their interest v the mother..

their cant agree with each other in most topic...

i'm wondering y parents always thk tat they are rite...

jz bcoz they are older than us??

y cant they accept our opinion??

when they dun wanna listen to us...there's always generation gaps..

when there's generation gaps..problems appear...like me..

i hv a fren..he's very nice..and he got a wonderful family..which i always hope for..

his mum is very friendly..his parents can communicate well with their children..

they can share their feelings and thought...

i understand maybe sumtimes they'll hv arguments..but tat is unavoidable...

unlike mine..war that never end..

honestly..i hope i'm part of their family..

everytime i came bac from their home..it's like the end of sweet dreams for me..

ppl used to said..there's no place better than own home..

but for me..there's always a place tat is better than own home..

when can i get my own life..the life i always dream for...

i'm sick of following her instruction..

wat for be a good boy...i hate my life..

i wanna do wat i feel to do..

i wanna go where i feel to go..

i wanna talk whenever i feel to talk..

tell me when this day will cum...